I still don't see myself as looking any different than I did 4 months and 45 pounds ago. BUT I DO. I keep telling myself that, and this weekend I got more evidence. I went to my favorite fashionable little boutique (Walmart) for some retail therapy. I needed some capris because the only pair I own are now 2(!) sizes too big. I found some really cute ones that didn't look like clown pants so I was super stoked. Why do clothing manufacturers think us fat girls want our capris to fit like bloomers anyway?
Moving on: I decided to get a new shirt too, so I hit the $9 table because I'm a big spender like that. I'd already forced Nathan to sit in the fitting room and be patient while mommy tried on several pairs of pants, so I didn't want to go back. It's hard to try on clothes while wrestling a three year old away from playing with the door handle and exposing me to the world or trying to crawl out under the door and taking off. I can just picture him escaping and me half-naked yelling, "Somebody trip him and slow him down please!" I found a cute --and cheap-- orange knit shirt with a ruffly collar and chose what I thought was the right size using the hold it up to my boobs and see if it'll go around test, so we headed for the check out stand.
The next morning when I was getting ready for work I put on the new duds. The shirt was big. It was like a tent. I think I could have fit two of me in it. That's when I realized that in my head I'm still the same size I was four months ago. I still look at a 4X shirt and think it's going to fit. I'm slowly figuring out that I'm not a 4X girl anymore. And I like it.
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WHOOOHOOO! So glad you got some new clothes, I can't wait to do the same! WTG Miranda! So proud of you!
ReplyDeleteSee, we aren't all lying to you! :)
ReplyDeleteI am so very proud of you! You are on a tremendous journey, just wait and see what you will look like at the end of the journey. Yes it is a long one but, well worth it! I am sure when I see you next I won't even recognize you! You are amazing!
ReplyDeleteOh miranda I so know what that is like!! I still go strait to the big girl section in most stores without even realizing it! I pick out what my mind thinks will fit me knowing full well that I'm no longer a size 22, 18 or even 10. That's one of the hardest things to get used to. And yet so rewarding....or at least I think. I still get xcited when I go into a store and pick up what size I KNOW I wear and try it on and it fits! Sounds silly to anyone who hasn't lost a considerable amount of weight, and even if you are aware it happens and try to prepare yourself for it, it still bhappens. Its a head game! Congrats to you, your doing awesome!
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